I got the new supplements finally! I got the first three a week ago, and when I started taking them I noticed that I had energy on a deeper level, but was sick at the time so still pretty tired. I also noticed that my body regained its natural happiness! My serotonin levels are back up, and I'm amazed at the body's ability to be happy all by itself. Life instantly improved when that happened, as if everything in my life changed for the better and was sweeter to taste. Now I've been taking the second set of them a few days, and there've been more changes! My acne is disappearing again, and I'm noticeably thinner. Once I'm fully recovered from being sick with a fever and coughing crap up I think I'll have a lot more energy. I have the motivation from my increased energy to clean again, too.

I've always valued the knowledge of illness. So many people take their health for granted, or are happy to never think of those who suffer horribly every day. And because of this I'm glad I've gotten to experience illness on such a level, and that it was temporary. My symptoms were worse than those of someone with MS or Lou Gherag's... though of course those these people know they could die from it. lol I learned so much about my body from all this. I can distinguish tiredness from tiredness and exhaustion from exhaustion. It's amazing how many varieties of lacking energy there are. lol And they all feel different. You know, despite all the tears I've shed and the immense frustration I've had at my body, which I felt was betraying me, I am glad I've experienced this all. I now know what it's like to have your own flesh turn on you and eat up your life, and what it's like to be handicapped, (for I was by this.) It has also helped quickly mature my marriage in some important ways. But I'm glad it's over as well! :) Or will be soon.